However, I was not prepared for how anxious I felt about my breast augmentation. As the day approached I got more and more nervous. The night before I didn't sleep a wink. I've done "this" [other surgeries] 10 other times. What gives? You see, for me, the name of the game for my past surgeries has been about life preservation. I am a veteran when it comes to preparing for, executing and healing from surgery. This was different -- it was my FIRST surgery I didn't NEED. Why put myself through this unnecessarily? Why put something in my body that theoretically does not belong when I have fought long and hard over the years to remove foreign items [cancer] from my body? Hmmmmm.... good questions, Libby...
The answer became crystal clear. My body has been beholden to cancer and its treatments [surgeries, scans, chemo] for almost 10 years when I would never know when or if I would need another resection [to remove cancerous masses] so elective surgeries were out of the question if I needed a surgery to save my life. In September 2013, I received my 5-year cancer remission news and I finally felt my body was really MY body and not that of a cancer patient. I now could make my own decision about a surgery and a surgery that was for ME and it came in the form of a breast augmentation.
I'm not advocating augmentations since it is a very personal decision and controversial for some, but I don't think it is something to be ashamed of. The fact is 1 out 4 women have been augmented. I've never had low self-esteem or suffered from poor body image, but I am super excited to have a BALANCED, symmetrical body as a result of a lot of gym time and now this augmentation. I am thankful the procedure is behind me. Still young in recovery, but so far I am happy [I think my hubby is even happier] with the new ENHANCED me.
I am boobilious! :-)